I deleted my Social Media

I have had some form of social media since I was 12 years old. My first relationship with social media entered my world by the name of MySpace. I can remember vividly being up all night, feeling like I was sucked into a void that I didn’t know how to get out of. My pre-teen self knew something wasn’t right, yet had no awareness to name it or do anything about it.

After nearly 20 years of it being woven into my life, being off social media now—and existing in a world that’s very much still on it—is a fun little experiment for me. It’s like detoxing from something I didn’t realize was poisonously programming me through my entire adolescence and young adulthood. This thing had such a major role in shaping me that questioning its impact, for the majority of that time, was rare.

Now that it’s gone, I’m not sure what I’m experiencing. Am I grieving a loss? Coming alive in ways I never made space for before?

C) None of the Above or D) All of the above?

Although I am still sitting with the implications, the Higher guidance and I decided that it was time.

For the past 1-2 years, I played with the idea of not having social media. I would deactivate and reactivate my account so frequently that I was teased by my closest friends, sent memes and reels of being “that friend that always deactivates their account.”

Like much of my experience in life, I’m keen to develop awareness behind my actions, and which part of me I make my choices from. I started to track how frequently I would go on, what I was going on for, the reasoning behind posting anything, and what I was experiencing in the moment right before I automatically would reach for my phone. I used it as a self-development experiment. I started to recognize my need to prove something. Was I keeping up because I wanted to, or because I feared I would be irrelevant if I didn’t? I started to notice how it was like second-nature to compare myself or overshare myself, and the avoidance of emotional regulation. I learned (and am learning) over and over again how to self-validate, how to speak to God first, how to not need to be witnessed in my expressions in order for them to exist. (If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?) I also started contemplating how my relationships that are real and are present, outside of the screen, are the ones that occur most aligned and powerfully to me. And, l’m practicing leaning more into these teachings:

But over time, the sense of relief I felt every time I deactivated my account became increasingly interesting to me. It was like I could breathe again if I didn’t exist in that space.

It says somewhere in my Gene Keys (a system that uses a personalized profile based on your birth information to give you insight into your life) that I have my finger on the pulse of society, and there’s something about me pulling the trigger on things at specific times that will catapult society in the right direction. My experiment with weaning off of the social media juice became less about me and more about how I get to be an example of what is possible.

As a Metaphysician, I aim to live my life by listening to the Guidance of God, to my heart’s wisdom, and in ways that often aren’t obviously understood.

“I exist in the quantum Unseen by most Unheard by many But connected to all”

I deleted my facebook account with little resistance probably around 6 months ago. As far as Instagram, the attachment appeared to have its grips on me. Every time I would deactivate my account, I would end up reactivating it again, until one day, about a month ago now, I heard the gentle whisper that told me it was time. “Just delete it. What are you holding onto it for?” I knew that it was time to make a demonstration to God and to my heart that I was listening, that I was obedient, and that I trusted my intuition. So, I officially permanently deleted my account.

And I felt at peace with that choice. I am at peace with that choice.

Mind you, all of this while in the middle of launching and executing my first Reiki Retreat!

I’ve always enjoyed a degree of saying “F U”to my fears—from jumping out of planes to going against the grain.

There is a belief (and I believe it to be a limiting one) that says we need certain things in order to be successful. We need social media in order to market ourselves or get opportunities, or to keep up with the world.I often prefer to follow the clouds, not the crowds.

But when you learn that you can make your own rules to this game of life—ones that are in accordance and in integrity with the rules of the Universe—those limitations fall away. God becomes the unfailing supply. Giving becomes receiving. I would even have people call me to give me information of things going on in their lives and in the world because they knew that I had deactivated my account. It showed me pretty evidently who I was actually in a relationship with, and who I just had access to.

I just sat for tea the other night and shared this story with a new friend that I met. She was the first person to really hear me and get it. She thanked me for my courage and affirmed to me that I was a “trailblazer”, and vulnerably acknowledged her own struggles with social media and prosperity.

I believe I made this choice for myself and the growth that will continue to occur for me as a result, but in accordance with the Law of Oneness, I also believe I made this choice for the collective energy.

Don’t get me wrong—just as love acknowledges both the lightness and the dark, and holds space for both infatuation and resentment—social media brought a lot of beauty into my life during our relationship. It was exactly perfect as it was intended to be at the time.

There is a lot I could say about the direction I see us moving as a society, the intersections of our mental and spiritual health, the agendas that may or may not be at play, etc. As a Sociology major, it’s sort of engrained in me to think this way and see the world through that lens.It all started to become a passion for me at the Gregg Braden Conference that I attended in 2022. I learned about the power of our human technology, and how to ensure that it is honored and nurtured.I share out of care.

When it comes to technology, the internet, and all of its manifestations, I’d be crazy to say it doesn’t have a place. I dabble with ChatGPT. I have a relationship with Claude. (CLAUUDEEYYYYY, Dahling.)

But here’s what concerns me: the trust in artificial intelligence as a supreme form of intelligence.

ChatGPT (and I appreicate her!) is not smarter than you, babe. But she will be if you continue to use it and atrophy your neurons. Your neurons have antennae that receive signals from the field. The field, where Divine, higher-consciousness exists and whispers to us. If we stop using our neurons, they will atrophy and decay. Your brain will be like, oh, you haven’t used these in a while, let’s eliminate them and be the most effective brain we can be!

So please, use your precious neurons, honey.

According to a recent study reported in Time, “researchers used an EEG to record the writers’ brain activity across 32 regions, and found that of the three groups, ChatGPT users had the lowest brain engagement and ‘consistently underperformed at neural, linguistic, and behavioral levels.’” The study found that over several months, ChatGPT users became increasingly dependent on the tool. However, when a control group was later given access to ChatGPT after initially writing without it, they “performed well, exhibiting a significant increase in brain connectivity,” suggesting that “AI, if used properly, could enhance learning as opposed to diminishing it.”¹

¹ Time, “AI ChatGPT Google Learning School,” https://time.com/7295195/ai-chatgpt-google-learning-school/

Essentially, it’s not about the use of it. It’s really more about the misuse of it.

By the way, on the topic of neurons—did you know that your heart has over 40,000 of them?

The heart is the direct connection to Divine intelligence, which, in my opinion, surpasses all other forms of intelligence. Divine intelligence accounts for everything and is the infinite, eternal wisdom, understanding, and knowledge of The Source—the guiding force behind the universe, creation, and all truth.

That is within you. This vast technology is within you.

Maybe this was the post-educational rant little segue that was needed. A reminder to come back to the heart -the space of Love and regenerative emotions like care, compassion, appreciation. So, thank you Social Media for our time we spent together, and though our time has come to a close for now, I am grateful for it all.

The heart has the answers. It knows what to do. It speaks. Always.

I’m going to keep listening. How about you?